Condolences for
Carol Price (McCann)

Happy Birthday Carol! Hard to believe your gone! I miss you very much! xoxox

I am thinking of you today Carol! I love you and miss you!xoxo

Love you momma. Still miss you and think of you daily.

Hi momma, thought about you today on the ride to work. Why is life so complicated? Its one thing after another all the time. If it ain't bills, its the car, if it aint the car is something else. Always problems. People take life like oh its great, no worries. All a crock of shit. I feel like I put up with alot and never reap the rewards. Alot of things bother me. And the dreams, cant stand em. Wake up feeling like crap over and over. My mind is and has always been all over the map. I know most of it is all in my head and you deal with things with ignorance and pretend, but its never really been me. Maybe its the intelligence in me, the cleverness, I don't know. Until I figure the whys, there is no peace. I think I'm pretty sucessful but have nothing to show for it. I think I'm nice and a good guy, nothing there either. Happiness is elusive. I don't think anyone realizes it ever. Is this why we're here? When things bother us, it stays with us for such a long time. Thats everybody. When things are happy, its only short lived. We don't appreciate those times enough. I'm still angry inside. I put up with alot of change, grief, anguish and here I am--same situation. It doesn't get easier. Hard to prepare for. Its not supposed to be this way, but it always is. I love you and miss you. Wish you were here.

Its been a year since you've been gone. I think of you each and every day that passes. I didn't treat you as I should have especially at the end. My time and effort should have been spent with you. I was too busy with unimportant things in my life and for that I am regretful. You are more than just a mom to me, you were my best friend. I miss you so much momma. To give you a hug, to kiss you, to have you yell at me...I'd give anything just to have you back. So many times I just wanted someone to talk to. Yes, I have friends but its not the same. You always gave me a point of view from both sides, not just mine. We usually didn't agree but everything you said stayed with me and weighed on me before I made a decision or dealt with something. Life has its ups and downs and for the past couple of them they've been the latter. You know how i feel. The worst part of me is my heart. It loves like nothing else, but when it hurts theres nothing to make it feel better. I know what the answers are, know how to be, how to pull through, but my heart always plays such a big role in everything. Life is 10% what you make of it and 90% how you deal with it. I havent been doing so great lately, but theres promise on the way. At least I hope so. The holidays arent fun for me anymore. Not last year, not this year. I kind of dread them to be honest. I miss your face, your voice, you being here. I love you mommie.